when was the last time you did something for the first time?

two years ago i made a pact to myself, reposting this entry from my defunct friendster blog dated 30 may 2005 to remind myself of my forgotten promise...

“When was the last time you did something for the first time?” Ever since I’ve come across that line, I’ve been asking myself and searching my memory bank just when…. but I can’t remember anything! Was it because it was so long ago that I actually did something stupid or daring for the first time, or have I never really done anything out of the ordinary at all? I don’t want to think the latter is correct because I hate the thought that I have lived a dull and boring life. I always thought of myself as someone who’s weird and not an ordinary person, but for the life of me, I can’t think of something that I have done for the first time. Not just something anyone can do, but something that is out of the ordinary. And I’ve been thinking what I should try to do, that I haven’t tried before. I started to make a list but immediately scratch it out because my cautious mind keeps on making excuses not to. And it occurred to me that I am growing old and it seems that I haven’t lived my life to the fullest yet. There are things that need to be done and tried and I haven’t. And I’m afraid that there will come a time that I wont be able to do even the simplest of things, because being old makes you more responsible, more cautious, and boring. I don’t want that to happen, that’s why from this day forward, I will always look for something to be done, be it stupid or not. I’ll try to live my life to the fullest and when the end comes, I can say that I have tried it all. You might encounter me doing some crazy stuff, but don’t worry, I’m still sane, just learning to live my life without worries. After all , you’ll only live once, better enjoy it while it lasts.