HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

looking forward to the new year with high hopes and new dreams. 

may God bless us all this coming 2010.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

2009 at a glance....

Looking back through the 2009 i can say that the year has been a roller coaster ride much like the status of my beloved Philippines.... too many disasters (natural and man made) and all the tragedies and unthinkable things has happened in the last half of oh nine but as i have said we shouldnt also forget the good things that happened this year, think of the glory pacquiao brought us (just forget his affair and bad movies okay) and other filipinos who shine through and put the philippines in the world map again.  i think this is also the year where most of the important stars that i grow up wiht and loved has died and the passing of our yellow lady.  it just made you realize that nothing is permanent and nobody really knows what the future holds, one moment you're on top of the world and next you open you're eyes and found yourself deep in the gutter... but the good thing is that we all learn from our mistakes and there are still a lot to be thankful for... hmmm was 2009 a bad year? in some ways it was but overall we could have done better.... so here's hoping for a brighter and better year as we welcome a new decade :)

2010 resolutions...

and i think this is also the first time i'll make a new year's resolution after my infantile resolutions (read: student days and y'all know how long it has been hahaha) when i was still making one but i have to focus this time lest i forgot... but resolutions can be broken naman as soon as you made them diba? bwahahahah just kidding.

first of my resolution is i'll try  make sure that i continue my project - manila daily photo blog - just in case you forgot please do head over there and visit, though no new pictures yet... and hopefully i'll be a better photographer and capture things, people, places - the way i see it (jake sully: i see you chorvaness).  second is that i'll start loving myself first before anyone or anything coz sometimes i tend to get disoriented and out of focus that i start forgetting that i have my own goals and dreams for myself.  hmmm what else? dont trust too much, i have been a cynic but still dang i can be really gullible at times.  forget and forget, though it could be hard when some memories get triggered and you get yourself caught and reeling with the flashbacks.

afterthought....

i dunno if i have already posted it here or put it in some random post-it-notes or most prolly at the backof a notebook or planner... but i've always felt and known that i am destined to be someone great... it just so happen that i dont know yet how to do it and when it will happen but i know it will. hahahahha super feelinggera ko talaga :)

time to shed my cat skin and unleash the tiger within! rawrrrr :p

ang pangarap kong snow

hope y'all had fun celebrating christmas and didnt forget the reason why we have pasko... this is a late post but i have been busy but still i want to share this essay made by my cousin who currently lives and works in korea... and i shed a tear while reading this piece, made me more thankful that i always spend the holidays with my family.. and this piece made me appreciate and admire all the OFWs... this one's for all the OFW sacrificing for their families... please read on.


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"Silver bells, silver bells, it’s Christmas time in the city, children laughing, people passing, dressed in holiday style and on every street corner you’ll see… hmmmm, hmmmm... " napapasabay talaga ako sa mga Christmas songs na pinapatugtog sa paligid ng mall. Ramdam na ang presensya ng pasko dito sa Korea, kagaya nga ng kanta sa mall na pinuntahan ko, bawat sulok ay abala sa paghahanda sa paparating na kapaskuhan. Madami na ang nagkalat na Christmas light. Habang naglalakad ako pauwi sa aking tinutuluyan, napadako ako sa isang tahanan na nakaagaw sa aking atensyon kumakanta ang buong pamilya ng isang awiting pampasko,hindi ko man gaano maintindihan ang mga lyrics na kanilang inaawit, alam ko namang isa iyong Christmas song at pamilyar ako doon sa kantang iyon, Silent Night, kasabay ng nakakatuwang senaryong iyon ay ang malumanay na pag-ulan ng snow. Abuhang puting kulay, at dagli ay pumanaw ang ngiting dulot ng kagandahan ng nasa aking paligid, napailing na lamang ako at nasabi sa sarili kong, “it’s another white Christmas of my life”.


“Gusto ko ng SNOW…”, iyan ang madalas kong sabihin nung bata pa ako. Oo nga at ngayong nasa Korea na ako at nagtatamasa ng pinapangarap kong snow ay may tunay na kulang pa rin, kakulangang hindi kayang punan ng snow na aking matagal ng pangarap. Bagamat kailangan kong tatagan ang aking sarili ay nagiging marupok ako kapag PASKO ang paksa ng usapan. Akala marahil nang iba o ng karamihan na palibhasa at nasa ibang bansa ay bongga at sosyal ang magiging pasko mo, ngunit ito ay kabaligtaran sa kanilang inaakalang kagandahan, maling-mali sila. May snow, maganda at magarang bihis ng kapaligiran, at mga kakaibang pustura, ilan lamang iyan sa mga panandaliang saya namin dito.


Isa na lamang sa mga bagay na iniisip ko sa tuwing ako ay aabutin ng pasko sa aking pagtatrabaho dito sa Korea, ay ginagawa ko ang trabahong ito ng buong puso para makapagbigay ng isang maganda at masaganang pasko sa aking mga mahal sa buhay sa Pilipinas. Sa ganitong paraan ay naiibsan ang pangungulila ko sa kanila, lalo na at kapag nalaman kong nasiyahan sila sa aking mga ibinigay na mga regalo.


Masasabi kong walang tatalo sa leche flan at suman nina lola at nanay, sa karoling ng mga kapatid ko, iba pa rin talaga ang pakiramdam kung pamilya mo ang kasama mo. Ngunit ngayong lilipas na naman ang pasko ko na tanging ang binaong larawan at ang paulit-ulit na voice recorded tape lang ang aking makakasama bilang tanging kasama sa pagdiriwang ng kapaskuhan, sandali lang, ilang beses ko na nga bang napakinggan yun? Hindi ko na rin mabilang. Galing-galing na nga lang kung magagawa pa naming magtipun-tipon ng mga tulad kong nakikipagsapalaran dito sa Korea para makatulong sa aming pamilya, kung minsan kasi kahit pasko ay naghahanapbuhay pa rin ang iba sa amin. Kadalasan din ay ginugugol nila ang pasko sa pamamgitan ng pagiging abala sa pagtatrabaho at isa na rin ako sa mga iyon, dahilan namin ay, “…mabuti na ang ganito kaysa mamatay sa lungkot ng pag-iisip na isa na namang pasko ang nagdaang hindi ko nakapiling ang aking pamilya…” Kapag nagkakataon paminsan ay kami-kami ng mga kasamahan kong OFW ang gumagawa ng paraan para lamang maibsan ang kalungkutan, maging ang payak na tawanan pero minsan ito ay nauuwi rin sa iyakan. Kanya-kanyang saloobin ay naglalabasan na. At kakambal nga ng presensya ng kapaskuhan, nariyan ang mga kahilingan nila na kahit hindi namin kayang ibigay ay pinagsusumikapan namin, mapasaya lamang ang mga minamahal naming nasa Pinas, dumadating pa nga sa puntong iuutang namin sa aming amo at iyon ang ipambibili namin ng kanilang mga kahilingan, at kung minsan pa nga ay tinitipid namin ang aming mga sarili may mailaan lamang sa kanila, sabi nga nila, “it’s better to give than to receive” at “share your blessings”


Hindi ko rin naman mapigilang ikumpara ang pasko ng mga koreano at pinoy. Dito sa Korea, bongga nga ang pasko gaya ng obserbasyon ko sa paligid, papalapit pa lang ang pasko ay tila paskung-pasko na talaga dito at siyempre may snow. Kaibahan sa atin simple lamang dala na rin ng ating mayamang kultura, pero parang piyesta, sama-sama ang buong angkan pati pa nga ang mga kapitbahay. bigayan ng pagkain, pamamasko ng mga mumunting bata sa kanilang mga ninong at ninang. Sabay-sabay na pagbubukas ng mga regalo at ang pinakamahalaga sa mga Pinoy, ay ang nine mornings o mas kilala sa tawag na “SIMBANG GABI”. Kagaya nga ng nasa kanta ng isang singer na Pinay, “…may tatalo pa ba sa pasko ng ‘Pinas? Ang kaligayahan nami’y walang kupas…”, may tatalo pa nga ba sa ating Pasko? ‘diba wala?


Lahat ng iyan ay ang mga ala-alang binabaon ko sa tuwing magpapasko sa Korea. Ipinapagpasalamat ko na lamang sa Diyos na sa oras ng kalungkutan, hindi Niya ako pinababayaan, maging ang aking pamilyang nasa Pilipinas.
Ngayon, habang nag-aayos ako ng mga ipapadala sa kanila bilang regalo, naisip ko lang, kamusta na naman kaya ang magiging pasko nilang hindi na naman nila ako kasama?

hello kitty christmas surprise

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! :)

wheee ilang days na lang pasko na! merry christmas dont forget my gifts :) have a mary-christ-mass to all

hello kitty christmas surprise!

sorry folks if it's been a while since i posted something here, facebook is really killing my blog i guess coz i find it more convenient to post status update in FB but still there are some stuff i can only write here in the blog and some stuff that i want to share the whole world like my wonderful meet up with none other than Hello Kitty! :D

eyebags kung eyebags diba pero keri na rin basta katabi si hello kitty sa picture, kaw ba naman puro party sarap talaga pag christmas season hehehe (yeah iniinggit kita chito and lahat ng di makapasko sa pinas LOL)... heniways even though i only had less than 3 hours of sleep hafta force my eyes to open and get up coz its meeting hello kitty noh...

twas super fun, seeing hello kitty and watching her sing and dance live (wahahah parang bata, batang isip? LOL)... will just share some of the photos here but most of the photos you can find in my FB album.

there was hand/face painting, nail art, coloring chorva, and of course hello kitty :D

have a meow christmas y'all

hmmmm

french fries or danish cookies?

lost

lost my favorite hello kitty earing! wahhhhhhhh :((
it's been with me for years and now the other pair is lost forever huhuhu
the only consolation i have is that i can still use the remaining earing as a pendant or a pin but still it's heartbreaking that i lost her.. just wish whoever found the other pair will take care of kitty and love it and wear as much as i did.

lessons learned:
may mga bagay talaga na kahit mahal na mahal mo mawawala sayo sa ayaw at sa gusto mo, kahit anong pag iingat pa ang gawin mo.

pagka mawawala talaga ang isang bagay kahit anong iyak at pagpilit na mahanap di mo na sya ulet makikita... at kahit ano pa ang gawin mo hindi na sya mababalik sayo.

chelsea

it's been a while since i posted something about my favorite niece, chelsea - so here she is all grown up and she's already 3 and a half years old... but sometimes i wonder if she really is an old lady just pretending to be a kid hehehe

sometimes you just cant help but laugh at her especially if she dont want you to bother her she'll tell you am already tired.. or if she doesnt want to talk to you she'll say "antok na ko.... tutulog na ko!" wahahaha  ayuf na bata LOL

but yeah, she's still a kid...an uber kulit kid

wahahaha just a few moments after i posted this i showed chelsea my old posts about her  and she was looking at the photos and she saw this PIC hahahha and she asked "sino yna? pangit!" wahahahhah told her it's you LOL and she doesnt wanna look at the pics na hahahaha

love after love

The time will come

when, with elation,

you will greet yourself arriving

at your own door, in your own mirror,

and each will smile at the other's welcome,

and say, sit here. Eat.

You will love again the stranger who was your self.

Give wine. Give bread. Give back to your heart

to itself, to the stranger who has loved you.

all your life, whom you ignored

for another, who knows you by heart.

Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,

the photographs, the desperate notes,

peel your own image from the mirror.

Sit. Feast on your life.

- Derek Walcott

hello kitty nail art

it's been a while the last time i had a manicure.. uh huh kutix and all that... and i think its time to have my nails done... but me thinks i need to go to tokyo to get this very cool hello kitty nail art, now if i can find a store (local or online) which sell these cute hello kitty nail art junkies i am pretty sure i can make something wicked out of it like my hello kittified iPhone hehehehe

image from Getty

update: for more hello kitty nail art pictures click here

lost kitty

Oh not because happiness exists,

that too-hasty profit snatched from approaching loss.

But because truly being here is so much; 

because everything here apparently needs us, 

this fleeting world, which in some strange way keeps calling to us. 

Us, the most fleeting of all.

...Ah, but what can take we take along into that other realm?

Not the art of looking, which is learned slowly, 

and nothing that happened here.  Nothing.

The sufferings, then. And, above all, the heaviness,

and the long experience of love, 

- just what is wholly unsayable.

- from The Ninth Duino Elegy, Rainer Maria Rilke

serprise

serprise!!! an early christmas present from my very good friend malen (shucks mare honga 2 years na tayong magkakaibigan!) hehehhe


a stirrer... ang tagal kong inantay nito mare... isang taon mula nun binigyan mo ko nun mug :) (shet di ko lang mahanap ang pic nun mug) tenchu so much

and aside from this serprise me sekwet date kasi ang lola malen at ako ang kanilang julalay! amf... will reveal soon kung sino ang bagong boylet ng lola... watch out for it :D


on another note guilty naman ako sa monita ko sa kris kringle namin sa pabrika, ako meron na 2 gifts galing sa box :D samantalang ako di pa nagbibigay wahahahaha... gusto ko kasi pag nagbigay ng gift one time big time

stop

to my dear blog friends, lurkers, stalkers, haters, and fans (nyahahaha as if merong fan!)

this is to inform you that www.heyokity.com will no longer be accessible in the coming days... enjoy the posts here coz anyday from now heyokity will close its operation...


that is because my domain will expire and i have chosen not to renew the dot com anymore... but dont worry peeps you can still find me at http://heyokity.blogspot.com should my domain lease expires...

to my stalkers - i wont make it hard for you guys to stalk me, so there bookmark the site ;)

to my lurkers/readers/fans - if you still want to be updated with the latest drama in my life, join my adventures, laugh with me, cry with me... you know the drill bookmark http://heyokity.blogspot.com

footah! feelingera ko talaga na marami akong fans! shet LOL

We all had our reasons to be there
We all had a thing or two to learn
We all needed something to cling to
So we did...

living in my own little hell... trying to survive as each day goes by... i can still see the moon from here... moon can i ask you again?... but this time with just a single question... what's wrong with me?

one of the resons why people get so sentimental…it's because memories are the only things that don’t change…when everything else does… there are things in life that you cant hold on forever, no matter how much you fight for it...

sometimes destiny isn’t always good, it becomes playful... when you meet someone you learned to love, you thought it was destiny who made your paths cross... but what if making your paths cross is just a part of the game that the playful destiny create? making you realize in the end that the person you though that was destined for you wasn’t really meant to stay… but only destined to make you feel love and leave you when you’ve already fallen..

you can never own something that was never yours… so lets stop gripping on things we expect to last forever...

nothing lasts forever.

forever is a lie.

everything is transitory.

so while you have something in your hand, put in mind that its just borrowed... so that someday when its gone, it wont take you eternity just to let it go...

when your feelings get strong for someone, its always wise to stop for a while and give you heart a time to breathe... a time to use your mind to weigh the situation based on reason not on emotion... because the saddest thing that can happen is when one fall in love while the other wants nothing more than friendship...

love can sometimes be magic...

but magic can sometimes be an illusion...

there are times when I wish that I was limited to certain emotions... so that i'll never have to experience pain, never feel betrayed or disappointed, and never get my fragile heart broken... but the same thing means that ill never know how it feels to love and be loved in return... the thought of it kind of scares me... to have a heart that’s whole but numb… or a heart that’s broken but real...

someday we’ll all be looking back to those days we learned to love, get hurt, cry, and fight... maybe when that time comes, we’ll be laughing at our old dumb selves… realizing how stupid we were to stand up for things we knew weren’t really meant for us...

but I guess learning takes time, and mistakes make one’s journey fun...

life is what we make it...

love makes the world go round...

so let’s live, love, and take whatever pain it brings...

though its hard to wait around for something that I know will never happen…

its harder to stop when I know it's everything i've always wanted...

so where do you learn the art of letting go?

time

“Time is free, but it's priceless. You can't
own it, but you can use it. You can't keep
it, but you can spend it. Once you've lost it
you can never get it back.”

"I was thinking about how disjointedly time seemed to flow,
passing in a blur at times,
with single images standing out more clearly than others.
And then, at other times,
every second was significant, etched in my mind."

“We all have our time machines.
Some take us back,
they're called memories.
Some take us forward,
they're called dreams.”

is she hot or hot?

with all the brouhahaha about the trilogy of Manny Pacquiao, Jinkee, and Krista Ranilo rocking the philippine blogosphere and traditional media... just confirmed my belief that all filipinos are chismoso at chismosa! yeah cheezmax to the max bwahahahaha cant remeber the last time people were abuzz talking bout other peoples lives hehehhe.

well anyway here's my take on the manny-krista-jinkee thingy: having money and fame kinda makes you a magnet for all temptation but having money and fame doesnt give you the right to give in to temptation.

oh well moving on... thanks to dj mo twister's newly opened blog (which is so awesome like the Dj he is you should really check out his blog and listen to his good times radio show) i found out about this hot chick named mocha. and oolahlah she had a kissing session with krista before the manny chismax went out... go check out mocha uson's blog for more photos and see her girl on girl action with krista.. wahahahaha


hmmm is krista hot? nah.. but mocha is! LOL

PS. i forgot to congratulate pacquiao on his awesome win over cotto! dang see now his triumph is being overshadowed by this scandal. people are now talking about krista and him instead of how he beated down cotto. oh well, he's still the greatest boxer i know though...

mind over heart : heart over mind

mind over heart

"Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one said it would be this hard"

heart over mind

"Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for tryin' to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way, I found out I'm nothing without you"

letting go

"If you love someone, set them free.
If they come back they're yours;
if they don't they never were."

heart on fire

my heart skipped
and fluttered
is it true?
still cant believe
what i've heard
too good to be true?
dare i hope again?
please dont play
with my heart