i love YOU

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

i hate love... but i love you

looking through

Children three that nestle near,
Eager eye and willing ear
Pleased a simple tale to hear --

Long has paled that sunny sky:
Echoes fade and memories die:
Autumn frosts have slain July.

Still she haunts me, phantomwise
Alice moving under skies
Never seen by waking eyes.

Children yet, the tale to hear,
Eager eye and willing ear,
Lovingly shall nestle near.

In a Wonderland they lie,
Dreaming as the days go by,
Dreaming as the summers die:

Ever drifting down the stream --
Lingering in the golden gleam --
Life what is it but a dream?

pursuit of happiness

happiness is just a state of mind right? but why is it so elusive? one moment you think that it's within your grasp, contented and secure that it'll last forever but next thing you knew it's gone - so why do we keep on trying to find happiness... when it is just a fleeting moment... but hey i gotta admit that it felt soo fuckin good while it last... that's why we get so addicted in trying to recapture and experience that euphoria again. there is no such thing as happiness, only lesser shades of melancholy. i guess i'm back to being a sentimental cynic

aym payn tenkyu

sabi nga ni dhon we are the only one who makes things complicated, my foint ka jan manong!
hmmm kaya ba ganito na kayo magbatian ni juvs? hahahahaha

i was already on my way home, when genna texted me "Me pasok ka b?" replied to her, "yeah just on my way home, y". she texted back and said "Wla. Inom tayo. Hehe." Wow the words i wanted to hear! I badly needed a drink last night so i went back to Makati and agreed to meet her at Dencios.

i wasnt really planning to drown my sorrows last night but a good invitation came at the right time just when i needed one! a divine intervention or just a good excuse to drink? well, heniways genna said dhon might join us and will just catch up with us (sus girl nauna pa si dhon sayo, anubeh)

a few minutes later genna arrived...

and we roasted dhon, rather we extracted some juicy information from him hahahaha, capitalizing on the fact the he was already drunk while i was emptying my second bottle and going for the third. i tried rhum coke and it's nice but it was bloating me up due to coke content so i went back to drinking smb light

2 buckets later, juvs arrived! hehehe infairness the hair pang anime! LOL

op kors, class picture di malilimutan! hehehehe


it was nice seeing them again, last time i saw these guys was on our "zpd reunion" about 3mos ago. hmmm its like i've known these guys for like 8 years now, and 4 years after we left zpd it's nice to know that they're still the same, matured in some ways but still rocking!

aym payn tenkyu

my heart

among these pile of emotions

can you see my blue heart
shining like a fucktard
killed by paranoia

pinoy ako

found this old video of my nephews singing pinoy big brothers "pinoy ako" from my nilulumot na baul. taken on 16 february 2006. i found them really cute and they know the lyrics of the song, singing their hearts out while playing their guitars!

that's christian (my eldest nephew), hendrix (my cousin's son), and the smallest bald kid is gabriel (my bro's kid). they were aged 3, 5, and 1, respectively when the video was taken.

sunset moon

i love seeing the sunset greet the moon... it is always magical and special to me
(view larger image here)

why so serious?

A dark film that is surprisingly sprinkled with humour... why so serious when you complete me! (better watch the film so you'll know my reference to joker maguire's classic line hehehe). the movie shows the thin line beween good and evil, just one snap and your dark side will prevail.

what can i say about heath ledger's performance as joker? didnt saw any heath persona in the movie... he's one hell of a joker! i think im in love with joker hehehe

"I get the feeling that you and I could do this for eternity. "

old skul pix

blast from the past, out of boredom i decided to look in our old photo album and cant help but laugh at how i looked like when i was young hehehe

me and nanay at luneta hahahahaha! shet thunders na ko bwahahahahha

i was about 3 years old in this pic, uso bangs dati, hmmm pa-bangs kaya ulet ako ngayon parang ms. swan? LOL (shemay haba ng kamay ko talaga!)

wahahahaha pa-gerl ako dito! (shet panget ko pala nun bata ako! argh pero un smile ko ganun pa rin wahahahahaha)

next time naman un mga kulotski ang buhok ko ang ipost ko, hanapin ko muna

chelsea in red

ganito ba tamang paghawak ng payong?

o ganito?

kelangan ba left foot forward?

while singing under my umbrella ella ella...

ayaw ko na, pagod na ako

goodbye

model: chelsea

prowling

I crave your mouth, your voice, your hair.
Silent and starving, I prowl through the streets.
Bread does not nourish me, dawn disrupts me, all day
I hunt for the liquid measure of your steps.

I hunger for your sleek laugh,
your hands the color of a savage harvest,
hunger for the pale stones of your fingernails,
I want to eat your skin like a whole almond.

I want to eat the sunbeam flaring in your lovely body,
the sovereign nose of your arrogant face,
I want to eat the fleeting shade of your lashes,

and I pace around hungry, sniffing the twilight,
hunting for you, for your hot heart,
Like a puma in the barrens of Quitratue.

- Pablo Neruda

red ninja paopao

red ninja paopao - responsible, a great friend, passionate and quick tempered

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yellow ninja paopao

yellow ninja paopao - sweet yet strong, a skilled martial artist, and a great photographer

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green ninja paopao

green ninja paopao - a great dancer, once a race driver but quit after an accident, kind to children and elders

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pink ninja paopao

pink ninja paopao - master of disguise, determined with strong instincts, pet lover

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black ninja paopao

black ninja paopao - adventurous, playful, and has the ability to talk to animals

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the legend of ninja paopao

the legend of ninja paopao

In the Japanese history, a Ninja was someone specially trained in a variety of unorthodox arts of war. The methods used by ninja included assassination, espionage, and a variety of martial arts. Their exact origins are still unknown. Their roles may have included sabotage, espionage, scouting and assassination missions as a way to destabilize and cause social chaos in enemy territory or against an opposing ruler, perhaps in the service of their feudal rulers (daimyo, shogun), or an underground ninja organization waging guerilla warfare.

But the legend of ninja paopao is different, unlike any story you've heard about ninjas... ninja paopao is cuteness overload, and the weapon they use include hello kitty, credit card, flowers, and a remote control - in just a flick of the hand. But be very careful, they may look charming yet the ninja paopao is deadly. They have mastered the technique of stealth and disguise and i recon you wont even recognize a ninja paopao. Legend has it that they dont really exist, but they do, you just have to believe...

meet the lovable ninja paopaos - black, pink, green, yellow and red

monster pancake

i was on leave yesterday because im not feeling well (charing lang, achully tamad leave lang talaga hehehe) and it was raining yesterday (i dont know what's with the rain that makes me wanna have pancakes) so may i cook ang lola nyo (yeah marunong naman ako magprito kahit pano noh).

i wanted to make the pancakes with cute faces, achully gusto ko gumawa ng hello kitty pancake but dyarannnn i created a monster pancake! amf!


hmmm on my second attempt to prepare a hello kitty pancake, success!!!

sus charing lang noh - binastos na hello kitty lang kaya ko gawin LOL.
stole this hello kitty pancake image here