
you often hear me complain about how thin i am and that i need to gain weight. so why am i so obsessed in getting fat? i have always been skinny and i have never ever weigh more than 120lbs in my entire life, how sad is that? as a kid the best description they can give me is "payatot".
when i was a kid and would visit relatives (even for like a 2 day vacation), they always vow that they can make me fat or at least help me gain weight... and true enough they feed me, some even getting at lengths to serve me foods that i like (i am pihikan, picky with what i eat, definitely no vegetables for me). even the neighbors always give me snacks, in our house i automatically have the biggest portion... and i dont have any complaints about it =) i can eat anything i want and people still think that i haven't eaten yet, and would give me second to third servings! whenever i start work in a new company the people welcome me with a standard statement that i just have to wait a few months and i'll be fat... sadly it never happened, ever! and somehow i feel that i've disappointed everyone because they weren't able to make me fat.
i often wonder how it feels like to be fat, or at least have some flesh that when you pinch yourself you dont immediately feel your bones. i eat junk foods and drink lots of soda a lot because they could make you fat. please help me gain weight, just dont give me crap about eating healthy and start eating vegetables!